Embodiment... Is it really important?

Why am I on this path towards deeper embodiment?

Is it really important to get in touch with my body

And connect with all my parts..?

To be connected to my feelings and emotions?

Do they really hold a message for me?

Is it more important than helping others?

And making money for my family?

And using all my talents and sharing them with the world!?

What about doing all the mitzvahs and serving Hashem.. ?

My go-to subconscious thoughts are keeping me in my head... Telling me all the things I need to do.. ideas to accomplish.. things to plan and get done.. and only then I'll be happy..

Lemme just get married

Just have kids

Just make money

Just make beautiful paintings..

Just sell the painting

Just make a program and inspire others

Just heal my anxious thoughts...

Just be around like-minded women

Just learn enough Torah ..

And then I'll be happy..

And live happily ever after...

But I'm slowly learning

And noticing

That all of these thoughts are chasing happiness

And I'll never really get there

Cuz there will always be something else

A deeper yearning...

I'm slowly learning

That my soul is ok..

It's whole.. holy.. divine...

But my body.. it needs me.. to heal..

To listen to her inner wisdom

To feel the peace and love of Hashem

That comes from presence

In each moment.

My body comes with me everywhere

It's the vessel that holds my soul here

It allows me to experience my life

And when my nervous system is regulated

I can live and choose conciously.

Hashem created this entire universe cuz he desired a relationship with me.

Not with my soul..

Not with the version of me I think I should be

Not with the me that hides in shame

Or wants to be perfect.

Authentic me right now,

In this body

With these emotions

With these struggles

And desires

And dislikes.

My body holds the wisdom

To access the peace and joy that I've been chasing all my life outside of me..

If I only surrender and allow it..

If only I slow down enough to listen

And tune in to each moment

And honor my needs.

Being embodied

Allows me to unite with G-d Almighty

Allows me to feel safe and secure and enough

Allows me to tap into my true purpose at each moment

No matter how I'm feeling.

And from this place

Grounded

Breathing

Being in the moment

I can notice

The opportunities in front of me

To step into

Sometimes to give, sometimes to receive

All part of the one Hashem .

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This painting, called "City of Parts", reminds me of the sacred role we have to bring all our parts back home. This is the purpose of creation, and God willing very soon we'll all feel Hashems light within our bodies and within the world!

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