Rosh Chodesh Nissan 5785 Freedom of my Voice

It's time for my freedom

It's time to own my voice

It's time to relieve the lump in throat that has been there for decades... Keeping me small and shy and worried about what everyone else thinks of me.

It's time to express myself

Through art

Through dance

Through words

Imperfect and messy and loud

And sometimes quiet

Just here

Oh so here

I feel a calling in my soul

An inner Moses

Calling me out of this self doubt

Here I come

On Rosh Chodesh Nissan

The first month for our nation

The month of miracles

The month of redemption

The month of expression

The month the fire settled in the Mishkan

God is pulling me out

With a deep knowing that I can't stay in self doubt anymore

A deep desire to speak my truth

Even if no one understands or wants to hear

Here I am

Breathing through the fear and discomfort;

Who am I to show up with this website

With these offers..

There are so many people doing similar things

And so many people better at it!

And I'm still so shakey

Still sometimes so out of my body and scared

Who am I to show up ???

Here I am

Facing this fear

Breathing with humility of my ancestors who left Egypt with flat Matza

It's true, I may not be the best

But I am me

I am CHOSEN by God to express His light

I am holy, I am whole, I am here

In this body, with this soul, at this time

It's my art

It's my body dancing

It's my words on this page

And I'm going to express myself because God is taking me out of my personal Egypt

And I have something to say ...